ChibiMerMer

Wow! In... 273 days, you're the first person to contact me about not uploading any more content here! o_o To be truthfully honest, I was curious how long it would take for anyone to show any concern or contact me, if ever! On this account it's been 528 days since I uploaded anything! oO All I've been doing here is add some stuff into my favorites just to have something I can do on this site, that's it. Sometimes I collect stuff just to have something to do, whether it's sound effects, background music, or images.

As to why I haven't posted anything for so long or hadn't tried to make any more N64 animations... well... I could make a big topic about it, but those seem to get overlooked or not much commented on, so instead I'll make it brief.

I don't feel like I'm part of anything and there's basically nothing to motivate me here. Not just deviantART, but anywhere. Like I mentioned earlier, it took about a 3/4 year for someone to come up to me and ask about this, which was you, and I'm quite astonished of receiving this message! =O I would have closed my accounts months ago if it wasn't for wanting to see how long it would take for someone to go "Hey, maybe I should check on him and see what's going on"
During all this time of waiting around do I not remember any notes or comments that showed any concern about me or why I'm not uploading stuff, kind of proofing my point that "A lot of people pretend to care, only to get something out of you, or simply don't care unless you're their friend, which is something you may not be able to achieve unless you live around them".

It's a bit like this town, really. Within 9 months, no one would hire me. I even applied as a cashier for night-shift at freaking Wal Mart, and they would still not hire me just because I'm not from around here. No criminal records, always smiling, yet people are like "I don't know you, so I don't want you near me!" I only got a job here because a distant cousin of my dad put a good word in for a filthy factory job as a night-shift, part-time janitor. I had some pretty bad jobs. My current ones are working electrical with my dad, and cleaning up a bar in the morning that is run by a harassing woman that puts you down and uses you like a tool.

Some girls tried to hit on me too. Not because they like my personality or all the things I could talk with them about, but because I'm shy and quite timid around women, and they know how to exploit that. Despite never having had a girlfriend it doesn't mean these "female friends" didn't try using me and tried to manipulate me. I'm somewhat fortunate and quite unfortunate to have been raised by a manipulative mother and sister, which made me more cautious and identify liars like them better. Can't help but have a lot of trust issues and disorders because of them...

Anyways! I seem to be rambling on... Um, what I'm trying to say is that being confronted with an abundance of negativity and a lack of positive reinforcement is the reason why I'm not motivated of creating more content. Not just me, but is going through the exact same thing (minus the women hitting on him and jobs mistreating him). If users don't care about us or what we do, why should we care about what we do? What's the motivation there? To post more just so people can go "Make more!" and give no real support? And it's not depression that's preventing me from doing stuff. The things mentioned are the reasons content creators may fall into depression, because they feel like they're just wasting their lives to create stuff that hardly any seem to give a damn about. =/ A lot swallow pills or use their content to make money; I don't.

Great... I said I'd keep it brief, yet I keep rambling on.

Well anyways... Unless things will change where some people, like me, would feel included, get invited into some friendly conversations (chat, Discord), or find a place they can call home (forum, website), I don't think I'll ever make another N64 animation. I'm the type that would love to cooperate with some people on creating content, you know? Like a gang of Retro-game animation-makers or whatever. Like I make N64 animations while another does SNES, I don't know. XD

• I tried Spriter's Resource, but their community kind of insulted my work, so I didn't bother posting any.
• I tried uploading the N64 animations and F-Zero GX animations into wikis, yet received no comments or praise in those wikis.
• We (me and virty) tried out forums for Nintendo gamers (Pokemon hacking, Pokemon fan club, etc.) yet they cared so little of anything people made, and their staff just... sucked. I mean, wow! One website is over 10 years behind in its formatting, and another had over 600 errors on their front page! (still does, despite me pointing it out to their staff)
• Virty and I tried to make a combined account and post something there that required some effort to make:
  Entry #1: Extrageometrical Encounters!
  Pokemon Blue / Blau Spritesheet
  But no responses were received. I'm not good in advertising myself, but I would have thought at least that a few people would say SOMETHING to that. -_- But over 200 days later... Still nothing.

So yeah... What's the point?
Either way... thank you for your comment. ^^ It was nice to see that someone would finally put in the effort to contact me about this.
Thank you for that

You can reply to this and I'll respond, okay? ^^

You're welcome! ^^ Sorry I haven't said anything... I have my reasons... But not to worry, it's not you or anything.